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바닐라 어쿠스틱 (Vanilla Acoustic) – Dear

Fine, I’ll translate this song! You know this was actually one of the songs I didn’t like, but in an interview, both Vanilla Man and Sung Ah (the members of Vanilla Acoustic) chose Dear as their favorite song in the album… so you win. And as I mentioned earlier, here’s part two to my People series: friends. Again, I’ll try my best to keep it short.
13603419_914869138623179_7537404208759526647_oI once told a friend, “You know… you may not always be the first person I think of, but you certainly will be the last.” In my head, that was a compliment. Our immediate group of friends naturally change over time as it is heavily dependent on our physical location, and what I wanted to tell him was that no matter who I may be the closest to at any given time, he’ll always have a place in my mind. To my surprise, he was seriously offended, and it’s been more than two years since I talked to him. He no longer has a place in my mind.

There’s too much vagueness for my liking to friendship even from the get-go. We’re not born into it (family), nor do we agree on it (significant other), and it’s exactly this lack of assumed responsibility that makes friendship so comfortable, yet fleeting at the same time. When can we start calling someone a friend, and more importantly, when do we stop?

I spent most of my childhood hopping around different countries: birth in Korea (lol, parallelism makes me write it this way), infancy in Philadelphia, preschool in Hong Kong, elementary school in Korea, middle and high school in New Jersey, and college in Boston. With every move, I was left in an environment where I had to start over, start meeting new people, having to explain why I moved, where I’m from, and by the time I moved to New Jersey in middle school, I was sick of it. I barely talked to anyone, let alone speak, besides the occasional “here” to be marked present. Days passed without me saying more than five words, and the world was OK with that, and I had to be OK with that. And yes, it was about race, it was about the cultural barrier, the language barrier, and the immaturity and ignorance of the middle school kids, and that made me put up my own barrier against people, against friends. Looking back, I can think of two people from high school who truly tried to be my friend, who understood that we didn’t need to have watched the same shows as a child or spoken the same language at our homes in order to become friends, but I didn’t believe in friendship anymore at that point. To me, friendship was not only fleeting, but also extremely uncomfortable.

That view was challenged as I entered college. Simply based on race, I could relate with others for the first time, and I could say I made a couple of “friends” along the way. But even to them, from the beginning, I couldn’t resist myself from saying “I don’t think we’ll remain friends.” But we have, at least for now, and I could say these few people have affected me in ways they don’t understand, in ways I don’t understand. Sure, I still struggle to believe that friendships are lasting, but slowly, I learned how to be comfortable. No one knows if this friendship will last, or if I will ever have better friends than these idiots right now, but I can tell myself once again that these friends will always have a place in my mind, whenever, wherever.

바닐라 어쿠스틱 – Dear

미치도록 사랑을 했었고
눈물겹던 이별도 했겠죠
손 데일만큼 뜨겁던 시절을
가졌던 그대여

Don’t be afraid, don’t let me cry
흘러버린 시간에도
여전히 그대는
찬란하게 빛이 나죠

When I see you always be there
잔인하게 몰아치는
시간 앞에 무너지지
말아줄래요 나의 그대여

라라 라라 라라 라라

세상에 길들여져 무뎌지고
차가웠던 현실에 물들어도
여전히 따뜻하고
그토록 눈물이 많은 그대여

Don’t be afraid, don’t let me cry
흘러버린 시간에도
여전히 그대는
찬란하게 빛이 나죠

When I see you always be there
잔인하게 몰아치는
시간 앞에 무너지지
말아줄래요 나의 그대여

라라 라라 라라 라라
라라 라라 라라 라라
Vanilla Acoustic – Dear

We loved with all our hearts
And broke up with all our tears
You’re the one who took me
Took me at my brightest

Don’t be afraid, don’t let me cry
Even with the passing time
You still shine
Brigther than anything I’ve seen

When I see you always be there
To the cruel and fading time
Let’s not give in
Could you please not give in

Lala lala lala lala

The world burned you out
And when reality washed in
You stayed warm
You with your many swallowed tears

Don’t be afraid, don’t let me cry
Even with the passing time
You still shine
Brigther than anything I’ve seen

When I see you always be there
To the cruel and fading time
Let’s not give in
Could you please not give in

Lala lala lala lala
Lala lala lala lala

 

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I know how you feel. I was born in Boston, but raised in Hk international school, Taipei, and UK. I’ve lived in Korea for 3 years and Thailand for 1 year. My parents are from Taiwan and HK. I’ve felt the difference of looking like I belong, but speaking and thinking like I don’t, and vice versa. And learning about the fleeting nature of friendship and connections; having that understanding beyond your years is a blessing and a burden. I know how you feel. You’ve described your experience of being a TCKer very well.

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hey buddy,still live in boston?The covid travelling restrictions in asia areas including mailand China is over ,welcome!