It’s December. 7 months since I graduated, 3 months since I started working, and 2 weeks since I felt burned out. Truthfully, I’ve been very hesitant to write any of this fearing that some who I consider as friends may end up reading it. It’s odd that I feel more comfortable sharing my personal thoughts with complete strangers than with friends. Well, that’s probably why I was never too good with friends to begin with.
December has always been my favorite month, not because of the snow or the cold weather, but because of the blanketing happiness the month seemed to bring along with it. This may sound so unlike me for those who know me, but I loved that everyone seemed genuinely joyful during this time of the year. It really felt like a new beginning was coming, and I even secretly enjoyed the carols playing two weeks too early. Perhaps in the four years of college, I got too used to people. I started to like people. I think I should go back to my old days, the days when being alone was just fine. I spent most of my teenage year alone, and I liked being by myself (not that I had a choice). Never did I know the meaning of ‘lonely’, or maybe I just forgot what it meant. Am I lonely right now? Or am I just missing some people… I should love myself more. I lost myself along the way. I’m drunk. Bye.
December has always been my favorite month, not because of the snow or the cold weather, but because of the blanketing happiness the month seemed to bring along with it. This may sound so unlike me for those who know me, but I loved that everyone seemed genuinely joyful during this time of the year. It really felt like a new beginning was coming, and I even secretly enjoyed the carols playing two weeks too early. Perhaps in the four years of college, I got too used to people. I started to like people. I think I should go back to my old days, the days when being alone was just fine. I spent most of my teenage year alone, and I liked being by myself (not that I had a choice). Never did I know the meaning of ‘lonely’, or maybe I just forgot what it meant. Am I lonely right now? Or am I just missing some people… I should love myself more. I lost myself along the way. I’m drunk. Bye.
찬란했던 겨울 호수 얼어붙은 기억
깨진 틈 사이로 흐르는 맑은 하늘과
귓가에 부서지는 눈 쌓이는 소리
잊었던 날들 떠올리며 멍해지는 머리
끝없이 이어지던 발걸음이 멈추고
침묵 소리가 무겁게 내 맘을 때릴 때
메마른 먼지 냄새 코 끝을 울리고 가고
차가운 바람 들이키며 멍해지는 머리
차가운 웃음 속에 이별이 느껴질 때
무너진 가슴 속에 또 하나의 불빛이 꺼지네
어두운 밤 흰 눈처럼 소리 없이 흩어져 갈
따뜻했던 사랑이여
세월은 끊임없이 너를 밀어내는데
계절은 어김없이 너를 데리고 오네
한없이 맑은 물은 더 슬퍼보이고
들을 이없는 노래들은 물가를 맴도네
차가운 읏음 속에 이별이 느껴질 때
무너진 가슴 속에 또 하나의 불빛이 꺼지네
어두운 밤 흰 눈처럼 소리없이 흩어져 갈
따뜻했던 사랑이여
돌아선 뒷 모습에 낯설음을 느낄 때
내가 아닌 누군가 그대 곁에 머무르겠지
밝아오는 아침에도 결코 꺼지지 않고 빛날
별빛이 흐르네
The memories frozen over like the wintry lake
The sky that flows and shines through the cracks
The sound of snow piling that breaks me apart
My head spinning out of control thinking of our last days
When my endless footsteps fall short of you
And the weight of the silence breaks my heart
The dry dust rings the tip of my nose
And I go blank from the cold air I breathe in
The end I sense from your cold-hearted smile
Another candle in my heart loses its spark
Losing its life like the snowy dusk of December
My warm and lovely love
Time keeps pushing you off
But the season keeps brining you back
The clearest of lakes makes you look even lonelier
The aimless songs keep hovering aimlessly
The end I sense from your cold-hearted smile
Another candle in my heart loses its spark
Losing its life like the snowy dusk of December
My warm and lovely love
In the unfamiliarness of your back I know
Someone else will fill the space beside you
The stars flow on the dusk
That will never turn dark
Thank You for the translation! All my nostalgic feelings just popped up when I heard this song!
Sometimes missing people who are not around you is a pain… Better Love Yourself! Fighting!!! :) Best Wishes!
Thank you for your blogs, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one this way! This song really means a lot to me because I just recently lost someone v close to me._. Btw sorry if I keep commenting on your posts, I have nothing to do so I decided to listen to every song in your list XD …
I’m sorry to hear about your loss. Thanks for following the blog :)
I have been loving this song for years even not knowing the meaning of any word. I even asked my korean friend to tell me what was the song about and he told me that it was too poetic for me to understand LMAO
Thank you, it means a lot, seriously thank you!
The first part, is it part of the song? Or is it your own story?
That was just sappy me being sappy.
Love this part so much btw
Never did I know the meaning of ‘lonely’, or maybe I just forgot what it meant. Am I lonely right now? Or am I just missing some people… I should love myself more. I lost myself along the way.