I said I wouldn’t, but I did it again.
It was 3pm. A light drizzle fell against the window to my right, the sound barely making its way through my muted headphones. As usual, not having gotten much sleep the night before, I was dozing off to the 20th error message that flashed on the screen. The worst part about debugging my own code is the embarrassment I can’t share and laugh off when I finally figure out how dumb the mistake was. Rain… I always hated rain.
“Somebody is leaving.”
A message popped on my screen. It was from my coworker sitting across from me. I pretended to ignore it, but my big eyes betrayed me once again as he must’ve seen them wander to the edge of my screen.
“No response? :O”
Was I supposed to have a response? Am I supposed to be sad? Be curious to who it is? God dammit, I forgot my umbrella.
“Do you want to guess who?”
Not really. I mean, unless it’s somebody who can help me fix this bug right now. Or make this rain stop.
“Who is it?” I asked, not having much of a choice. He told me who. It was someone I wasn’t awfully close to, but still had a bit of respect towards. The guy always gave off that “don’t talk to me unless you have something interesting to say” vibe, a vibe some have told me I myself give off.
“I see. Interesting.”
That’s the best I could do, “Interesting”. He went on about something, probably something related to the guy leaving, but I stopped paying attention. It wasn’t until his last message that I felt the need to reply: “please don’t leave me.”
“People come and go,” I instinctively wrote and hit enter, a second too early for my brain to be able to stop it.
He looked at me from the seat across.
“I would cry”.
I was reminded of the last time I felt this way. I said I would care more, at least fake it if I can’t. For me, caring has always been black and white; I either care or I don’t. And in the moments I don’t, I would stay stupid shit like “People come and go” or “I’m happy to be leaving.” Why can’t I care, not a lot, but just a little. Why can’t I care ‘a slight grey’, like the murky sky that weeps a little.
It was 3pm. A light drizzle fell against the window to my right, the sound barely making its way through my muted headphones. As usual, not having gotten much sleep the night before, I was dozing off to the 20th error message that flashed on the screen. The worst part about debugging my own code is the embarrassment I can’t share and laugh off when I finally figure out how dumb the mistake was. Rain… I always hated rain.
“Somebody is leaving.”
A message popped on my screen. It was from my coworker sitting across from me. I pretended to ignore it, but my big eyes betrayed me once again as he must’ve seen them wander to the edge of my screen.
“No response? :O”
Was I supposed to have a response? Am I supposed to be sad? Be curious to who it is? God dammit, I forgot my umbrella.
“Do you want to guess who?”
Not really. I mean, unless it’s somebody who can help me fix this bug right now. Or make this rain stop.
“Who is it?” I asked, not having much of a choice. He told me who. It was someone I wasn’t awfully close to, but still had a bit of respect towards. The guy always gave off that “don’t talk to me unless you have something interesting to say” vibe, a vibe some have told me I myself give off.
“I see. Interesting.”
That’s the best I could do, “Interesting”. He went on about something, probably something related to the guy leaving, but I stopped paying attention. It wasn’t until his last message that I felt the need to reply: “please don’t leave me.”
“People come and go,” I instinctively wrote and hit enter, a second too early for my brain to be able to stop it.
He looked at me from the seat across.
“I would cry”.
I was reminded of the last time I felt this way. I said I would care more, at least fake it if I can’t. For me, caring has always been black and white; I either care or I don’t. And in the moments I don’t, I would stay stupid shit like “People come and go” or “I’m happy to be leaving.” Why can’t I care, not a lot, but just a little. Why can’t I care ‘a slight grey’, like the murky sky that weeps a little.
비가 내리다 말다
우산을 챙길까 말까
TV엔 맑음이라던데
네 마음도 헷갈리나봐
비가 또 내리다 말다
하늘도 우울한가봐
비가 그치고나면
이번엔 내가 울것만같아
Strumming down to my memories
지직거리는 라디오에선
또 뻔한 love song
잊고있던 아픈 설레임
널 생각나게해
우리 걷던 이길위에
흘러나오던 멜로디
흥얼거렸었지 넌 어디있니
하늘은 이렇게 맑은데
비에 젖은 내 마음을
따뜻하게도 비춰주던 너는
나에게 햇살같아
그런널 왜 난 보냈을까
Good bye
So hard to lose but easy to repeat
푹 숙인 얼굴 날 알아봤을까
I’m losing my breathe
잊고싶은 아픈 기억들
날 더 힘들게해
시간가는 줄도 모르고
나눴던 수많은 밤과 사랑노래
꿈보다 달콤했지
쉽게 포기한건아닌지
우연히널 마주친 순간
내 마음 들킬까봐 뒤돌아섰어
널 잡았다면
그런 널 왜 난 보냈을까
Good bye
우리 걷던 이길위에
흘러나오던 멜로디
흥얼거렸었지 넌 어디있니
하늘은 이렇게 맑은데
비에 젖은 내 마음을
따뜻하게도 비춰주던 너는
나에게 햇살같아
그런널 왜 난 보냈을까
Good bye
The rain comes and goes
Should I take my umbrella or not
The forecast said it’d be sunny
Even the sky seems to be confused
The rain comes and goes
As if to tell a sad story
When the rain finally stops
Would it my turn to cry
Strumming down to my memories
Through the staticky radio
Plays yet another love song
The sad memories I hid deep down
Wash up through the rain
The melody that filled the streets
The tune we used to sing along to
Where did you go
The sun shines so bright
You shined so bright
And kept me dry from the rain
You were my sunshine
The sunshine I let go
Good bye
So hard to lose but easy to repeat
Did you recognize me as I brushed by
I’m losing my breathe
The sad memories I want to keep down
Keep coming back up
The nights we shared
And the love songs we sang
Sweeter than any dream
Did I give up too easily
When I ran into you
I quickly turned to hide
To not show how much I missed you
Why did I let you go
Good bye
The melody that filled the streets
The tune we used to sing along to
Where did you go
The sun shines so bright
You shined so bright
And kept me dry from the rain
You were my sunshine
The sunshine I let go
Good bye
I love Paul Kim’s songs in special “Rain” I like your blog is pretty interesting. This one is a classic “debugging my own code.” Ha!
Thanks for translating his songs.
I finally got it though! No problem, thanks for stopping by. :)
I found your youtube channel a few days ago. And it has been a blessing. Lol. But it sure does. And your writing here… well.. about people come and go.. totaly right. I’m having a problem with my online bf now. He’s been disappearing for a week. Im terribly upset about it. But as i think more about it, it’s just an online relationship. Anyone can disappear anytime they like. He’s korean. Im indonesian…. it seems like nothing good will work. Anyway thank you for lyric and translation!