Life updates + Sappy Tuesdays + One of my favorites from Sweden Laundry
As with all sappy posts, make sure you scroll down and play the song before you start reading. (If you’re on a computer, it should autoplay and autoloop)
I cut myself, not on purpose.
Here’s a list of why this made me so sad:
It’s a weird feeling, to miss someone.
I eat alone, work alone, eat out alone, workout alone, read alone, and drink alone.
I cook alone, think alone, walk alone, smile alone, shower alone, and sleep alone.
I used to love solitude, my sail neatly folded beside me, the mast touching the ocean blue sky; It was my peaceful place, being alone, just floating mindlessly in silence, not a thought to be found among the shadows of the clouds.
Things are peaceful again. Nothing to stress over, nothing to worry over, nothing to fight over… Just staying afloat on this waveless ocean. But it’s almost too peaceful, time passing by at its own pace. I miss how the waves felt, how for every low, there was a high, and for every fight, there was a ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘I love you’. Time sometimes moved too quickly, and not so much the day after. Without my notice, I set up my sail up high, moving towards the rocky waves, but nonetheless moving. Every moment I thought was funny, every good restaurants I visited, and every funny post I read, it made me happy because I was excited to share it with someone, and wanted to know how that someone would react. Not just anyone, but someone. Without that someone, I tried anyone, but to no avail. Time is back at its 1 second per second pace. Today’s another Tuesday, tomorrow’s another Wednesday.
The wave has passed, and my mast broken. Yet I’m still here, praying for the wind to blow.
My dream has changed, but not the people in it. My dream has changed, but not the person in it.
As with all sappy posts, make sure you scroll down and play the song before you start reading. (If you’re on a computer, it should autoplay and autoloop)
I cut myself, not on purpose.Here’s a list of why this made me so sad:- I wouldn’t stop bleeding. Is this what being old means?
- I had to use 4 paper towels for this… What a waste.
- My cousin kept saying how hungry he was, so I had to continue cooking
- Doing the dishes hurt so. freaking. much.
- I read somewhere that bringing it to your mouth is actually bad, so I had to resist myself.
- But I know someone else still would’ve done it, wishing me to get better
I eat alone, work alone, eat out alone, workout alone, read alone, and drink alone.
I cook alone, think alone, walk alone, smile alone, shower alone, and sleep alone. I used to love solitude, my sail neatly folded beside me, the mast touching the ocean blue sky; It was my peaceful place, being alone, just floating mindlessly in silence, not a thought to be found among the shadows of the clouds.
Things are peaceful again. Nothing to stress over, nothing to worry over, nothing to fight over… Just staying afloat on this waveless ocean. But it’s almost too peaceful, time passing by at its own pace. I miss how the waves felt, how for every low, there was a high, and for every fight, there was a ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘I love you’. Time sometimes moved too quickly, and not so much the day after. Without my notice, I set up my sail up high, moving towards the rocky waves, but nonetheless moving. Every moment I thought was funny, every good restaurants I visited, and every funny post I read, it made me happy because I was excited to share it with someone, and wanted to know how that someone would react. Not just anyone, but someone. Without that someone, I tried anyone, but to no avail. Time is back at its 1 second per second pace. Today’s another Tuesday, tomorrow’s another Wednesday.
The wave has passed, and my mast broken. Yet I’m still here, praying for the wind to blow.
My dream has changed, but not the people in it. My dream has changed, but not the person in it.
답답한 새벽 잠은 안 오고
불안한 생각들이 꼬리를 물고
캄캄한 시간 기댈 곳도 없는
외롭고 아픈 날들
이젠 늦어버린 숨겨둔 마음
지나친 풍경들에 눈물이 나도
그대로의 내가 참 좋다며
웃던 네가 있길 바라지만
이젠 우연이라도 바래볼 수밖에
널 바라보기만 해도 난 녹아버릴 것 같아
괜찮냐고 해줘 울지 말라고 해줘
내 손을 잡고 다 잘 될 거라고 말해줘
지우고 싶은 무거운 하루
다가올 내일이 더 두려워져도
그대로의 내가 참 좋다며
웃던 네가 있길 바라지만
이젠 우연이라도 바래볼 수밖에
널 바라보기만 해도 난 녹아버릴 것 같아
괜찮냐고 해줘 울지 말라고 해줘
내 손을 잡고 다 잘 될 거라고 말해줘
나는 우연이라도 바래볼 수밖에
널 바라보기만 해도 숨쉴 수 있을 테니까
겁내지 않을게 도망치지 않을게
잠들 때까지 잠들 때까지만 있어줘
Another dawn, unable to fall asleep
Filled with emptiness and uncertainty
At a time filled with darkness
On a day filled with loneliness
The feelings I hid until it was too late
At the moments flashing by, I hide yet again
My tears, wishing to see your smiling face
Telling me how you loved me for who I am
Now I can only believe in chance
A chance to just see you again
Ask me if I’m OK, tell me to stop crying
Hold my hand and tell me it’ll all be OK
Days pass by without me living it
Tomorrow doesn’t feel like another day
Wishing to see your smiling face
Telling me how you loved me for who I am
Now I can only believe in chance
A chance to just see you again
Ask me if I’m OK, tell me to stop crying
Hold my hand and tell me it’ll all be OK
Now I can only believe in chance
Anything to just see you again
I won’t be scared, I won’t run away
Please stay with me, at least until I fall asleep
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